Of He Who Hopes and She Who Loves

by LiyanaDecember 02, 20122 Comments
Parents are the persons who love us with all their heart. If someone is lucky enough to experience that. And I am so grateful for the luck that I have till now. Alhamdulillah.

You know, when you love someone so much, you want them to do well. And my parents? They want me to do well, hence they give me everything. I can tell you, they literally give me everything. Shoes, clothes, handbags, and all those stuffs? I'll get them once I say " Kakak nak ni lah, Mummy/Abah,". But no, I don't do that. I'm not the kind of person who takes advantage on people, especially on the ones who love me too much. 

Abah has been persuading/forcing/asking/ordering (you can choose which word you want) me to buy a pair (or maybe two) new shoes. And when I said, new shoes, I meant Clarks, or Camel Active, or even Bonia. Everyone knows how pricey those things are. Mommy was planning to buy a Braun Buffel handbag for me (according to Dini) and thanks to my cerewet-ness, Mommy kinda hold that thought for a second. She knows I'm quite picky in these things. 

And all these things are given (or at least are intended to be given) to me with one simple statement : Kakak kan nak guna kat Aussie nanti.

Well, it's not that I don't enjoy these luxury. I do! I'm just a normal human being, and Allah, I seek your help to not get myself intoxicated with this dunya. But to think that Abah and Mommy are willing to pay such a huge amount of price with the hope that I'll give them the best that I can, I feel scared. What if an unplanned event happens in the future? Will I be a good student? Will I have the best grades? Will I graduate with the best marks?

These thought are strangling me from the inside. I feel so scared to see the future. I'm scared if things happen like the last time it did when I didn't get a tix to Spain. I've been to that stage. It wasn't pretty though it helped me in becoming a better person.

I'm just hoping that I am able to get it right now. I'm a pro in making mistakes, but I hope I'll be able to love enough to pick myself up from the deepest pit.

I love you, Mommy and Abah. I really do. And I want to do my best. Not only for myself but for the both of you. 
Liyana

Posted by Liyana

A girl who has a confusing attitude. She can fall in love in a blink of time and fall out of love well, that'll need more time. Clumsy, indecisive, and loves natural make up (though she doesn't wear one). She loves fashion (though she's not enslaved by it). She falls so many times, but never fails to get back up again. And that's about her that is so heartwarming. :)

2 Comments

  1. nadiahusna3 December 2012 at 00:23

    I love makngah and pakngah too....we've been through a lot as a family, and sometimes I think I'm fortunate enough to have maklang and makngah as my secondary mums, whenever I need them, they'll be there, whenever ummi's not around, and of course abbi, I know I'll still have them.

    Allah has taken one thing away from me, but i still have my 3 lovely mums and uncles. :)...and I still have you too...You'll do well in Aussie, Insya-Allah.I'm happy to see that you have a perfect family, and one day I so wish to build one of my own too. Someday.

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  2. Furrhunna7 December 2012 at 10:55

    kakak, the second paragraph of your comment makes me sad. :/

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