Hey, Liyana.
There are times that I wish I can just tell people that I'm so sick. I'm dying. So that they can at least look at me for a second and say,
" Now now, Liyana, here I am. Tell me what I need to do to make you feel better,"
*slapself
No one's gonna be sorry for you just because you feel sorry for yourself, Liyana. If they don't care, then they simply don't care. Even if you're dying.
Even if you're looking at them, trying to make them look at you, see you deep inside.
Even if.
Even if you're hurting so badly that you might lose your sanity.
Liyana, stop feeling sorry for yourself.
" Now now, Liyana, here I am. Tell me what I need to do to make you feel better,"
*slapself
No one's gonna be sorry for you just because you feel sorry for yourself, Liyana. If they don't care, then they simply don't care. Even if you're dying.
Even if you're looking at them, trying to make them look at you, see you deep inside.
Even if.
Even if you're hurting so badly that you might lose your sanity.
Liyana, stop feeling sorry for yourself.
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Dear Liyana,
ReplyDeleteSorry I was so busy with my midterm & assignments, I kinda missed out on what is happening to you. I know the feeling when you need someone very badly but you're trying too hard not to show it.
Don't do that.
Of course we need people in our lives.
I've been trying so hard to be strong for myself all these while, I told myself I don't need people. And I certainly feel that I'm okay with not having friends and all.
It worked for me, but it doesn't mean it will work for just anyone.
You see.. you have a very gentle, warm and caring heart.
But in some ways, maybe you try to hint others to do the same to you.
Stop that. Stop drinking poison and hoping others to die.
That is one very useful advice my friend once told me.
Bila kita terasa dengan orang, kita nakkkk sangat orang tu faham kita.
Nak orang tu pujuk kita. Nak orang tu pay attention kat kita.
They won't. And kita pulak, continue to makan racun, tapi harap orang tu yang mati - when we know in the end who's dying..
It is not for literal translation, but I know you'll get what I mean.
It is okay to feel sorry for yourself. Because not everyone will feel so for you.
Hidup ni tak ada sesiapa yang akan teman kita setiap saat kecuali diri sendiri dan Tuhan..
I know it sounds harsh, and perhaps you don't need this at the moment. But I do care for you, I don't want to see you getting hurt.
I'm sorry that I'm not a good friend to you.. but I know you can be a good friend to yourself.
Ingat Liyana, tak semua orang akan hargai apa yang kita buat untuk mereka.. and not everyone will be there when you need em most..
God, Liyana.
ReplyDeleteI see your eyes, I see how tired you get at the end of every single day, I see how you work your ass off. Yet, when I ask you if you're okay, what you're thinking, worrying about, you just shake your head and say everything's a-OK. What the?
Then again, that's what I usually do.
Liyana Liyana Liyana you're stronger than you believe yourself to be.