I just...
Wanna go home.
Never thought I'll be saying this, but I've shed tears, more than enough now. Not because I feel homesick, or I miss home.
I just don't feel at home. I feel lonely.
I just wanna go home. But I can't. I can't go home, because well, sometimes, my sanctuary is only a hiding place that'll make me feel safe, but not the place to make me feel challenged, and eventually, better myself.
Still, I wanna go home.
I don't wanna stay here. I don't want Aussie anymore. I don't feel at home. You know that feeling when you wake up and you feel like crap, because you're not waking up on your own bed? I can treat a month as a holiday but this is no holiday. This is my life.
I just wanna go home.
I don't think people like me around here. I'm trying to suit in. But everyone knows how hard this is for me. Not only for me, but I think I'm making this hard for other people as well.
I'm not adorable. I'm not pretty, and I always make me feel stupid.
I wish people who have known me is here. I want to be around the people who have known me before. This is so hard. So hard.
I wanna go home.
My Maths assignment is so hard and I don't even understand it, trust me.
I just wanna be the girl who you'd be comfortable with to pour your heart to.
Never thought I'll be saying this, but I've shed tears, more than enough now. Not because I feel homesick, or I miss home.
I just don't feel at home. I feel lonely.
I just wanna go home. But I can't. I can't go home, because well, sometimes, my sanctuary is only a hiding place that'll make me feel safe, but not the place to make me feel challenged, and eventually, better myself.
Still, I wanna go home.
I don't wanna stay here. I don't want Aussie anymore. I don't feel at home. You know that feeling when you wake up and you feel like crap, because you're not waking up on your own bed? I can treat a month as a holiday but this is no holiday. This is my life.
I just wanna go home.
I don't think people like me around here. I'm trying to suit in. But everyone knows how hard this is for me. Not only for me, but I think I'm making this hard for other people as well.
I'm not adorable. I'm not pretty, and I always make me feel stupid.
I wish people who have known me is here. I want to be around the people who have known me before. This is so hard. So hard.
I wanna go home.
My Maths assignment is so hard and I don't even understand it, trust me.
I just wanna be the girl who you'd be comfortable with to pour your heart to.
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Hang in there Liyana. We shall be at your rescue any months from now. O:)
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