When I call my mom next time, I'm going to ask her this :

" Mommy, do you want me to be home during summer break?"

Because I really want to be home now. I feel like booking a ticket straight from New Zealand to Malaysia (since I've bought the tix to go to NZ for winter break) and I just want to be home, around the people who I know will accept me, no matter how icky I may be.

No matter how I act upon certain things.

I just want to be at home.