I've given up.

I've given up on beautifying myself. Trying to find remedies to whiten my teeth, or to lose some pounds, or to  have flawless porcelain skin.

I've given up on making myself beautiful physically.

One day, maybe I'll lose my teeth and I'll have to depend on the fake ones. One day, maybe I'll be this wrinkled grandma with freckles all over her cheeks.

And to find someone who find me still beautiful despite all the flaws that I have in me. *sigh*

The question is : will I ever be THAT someone who find my significant other STILL handsome and attractive despite his round tummy ( I assume), his inelastic eardrums (perhaps), and his terrible terrible eyesight (could be)?

If I'm still the same girl who focus more on physical beauty rather than spiritual beauty, will I ever be the person who appreciate someone else's spiritual beauty?

Another question to ponder : Will I be the person who ACTUALLY deserve to have a beautiful significant other at the first place?

Emm, headache all over. :/